If I want to tell you a story about Jojo, I have to start with Japajade. That first book was about the life and thoughts of a person with bi-polar disorder, and was published by Tuma in 2005. Two years later, Mohorjeva Družba published my second book, Depra, which was about depression. In 2011 Itaq, a love story, was published by Miš. All my books deal with my own struggles with stigma.
Japajade and Depra helped me accept my mental illness, with Itaq I forgave myself for falling in love with women, and with Jojo – well, I hope to be able to free my soul of the guilt and stigma of sexual abuse. It is still difficult, but I am still here: I breathe, I see, I hear, I walk, I eat, I drink, I smoke, I have a bathroom and I still pay my bills, so there’s really nothing to complain about.
To all of those who have suffered, I sincerely apologise. To those who helped me and believed in me, I thank them. I will not talk about the story, not now not ever, because I wrote it to forget. It is just one of many similar stories that will never be put in writing or talked about, although they should be. Only then might we realise the horror and extent of sexual abuse.
All my books are fiction. They are real only at the moment of writing.
Then it all changes. Which is why I write. For it all to change.